The mid-twenties come with major pressures whether you like it or not. There are so many unavoidable circumstances that I feel as if the decisions one makes in their mid-twenties affect the rest of their lives.
I turned 26 in March and I have not had a good night’s sleep since then. It is a bit funny because I preach positive vibes and optimism all the time. Yet here I am, worrying my little head about what my future holds. My family keeps encouraging me not to burden myself with too much thoughts but it is easier said than done right? I am way too ambitious to be comfortable in my current state. I am way too restless to be patient and “let things happen in their own time”. I have not had a Tang Diaries post in over a year so here we go.
When I was 18 years old, I totally believed that by 26, I would be a successful fashion brand owner, Public Relations Executive and a fast-rising actor. Oh and I would be happily married as well. It seemed attainable then, I mean I had 8 years to achieve all that. Life has a way of making you go at its pace and there is not a damn thing you can do to change that.
Right now, I run an online Thrift Store & Style blog, doing what I love by helping ladies stay stylish on a budget. I am not a Public Relations executive yet but I am several steps closer to that and I am definitely not a fast-rising actor as you can see. Although, I have been attending more auditions especially after the response I got of my performance on the Youtube series 360 With Abby where I played Caroline. Not married and even though my parents will prefer that happens at least next year, I am more interested in getting my life together to a certain point before that happens. I am in a good place in my relationship and that is what matters.
I am always on social media because that is where I share most of my content. Recently, it got a bit too much for me. I shared on my Instagram that the lock-down period was hard for me mentally. I had creative block after a while of bubbling with ideas then I realized I had no means to make these ideas work. It was a bummer and I spent most of time reading novels trying to forget who I was & what I had to do. I felt so pressured& undeserving especially seeing other creative getting their juices flowing. Basically, the impostor syndrome struck big time and I was going crazy with inactivity. So I took a break from Instagram.
HOW I CURRENTLY FEEL
Some friends have reached out to encourage me although I totally appreciate the effort and words, that break was essential. I am a happy-go-lucky girl most of the time and the pressure to maintain this positive disposition all the time is a lot. Especially when I am far from happy with my content and life as a whole in that period. So I am giving my emotions time to run their course with the hope that I will be okay very soon. I do not use the word depression lightly but I have been there and it is not a place I want to be again. Now I pace myself and slow down when it gets too much for my mental state.
I am just starting this mid-twenties journey and have been reading up on some success stories. The fun part is, majority did not even figure life out till their mid-twenties were almost over. It has given me a fresh perspective. Success will come at the right time but the important thing is to keep working and be ready when it does.
My blog clocked 5 years this month and I have had to reflect on my purpose. I want people to leave my blog feeling so much better than when they clicked on the link. Same with my social media. I want to influence people to live better and be content with what they have while striving to have better. I want people to look at my life and see positive growth with the grace of God. I hope I have been doing this and I will be better at it.
Thank you for sticking with me. Cheers to the next 5 years. No pressure but WE MOVE!
Blazer & Shorts- Thrift Store NG// Bodysuit- Brief Essentials// Bag- Haute Signatures// Glasses- Olaide Baby Stores// Photo- Manvibes
“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit, you may abound in hope”- Romans 15vs13