My birthday this year is undoubtedly the best I have ever had. It actually felt like I celebrated my birthday in two days. I had a pre-birthday surprise party a day before and then got showered with love on the day itself!
My birthday was a week ago, 11th March, and I am low key still pumped about it. There is a lot of gist but I’ll keep it short.
I planned to have a beach shoot with Seun for my birthday but we kept moving dates because of time. Finally had a few hours to spare on Friday 8th March & despite feeling down, we had to do it. After a lot of mini incidents, we went to Elegushi beach, I quickly did my make up before I got too weak as I was already burning up. We took a few pictures before I finally broke down, threw up but still managed to get other shots. The struggle. We had to stop because I was too weak and then I could barely walk. My friends (Cynthia & Obara) had to put me in a cab to go meet my mum (big baby yeah) & Seun went out of his way to make sure I was safe. Thank you so much!
This is the first bikini I have ever worn & I love it even with my big tummy LOL. Shout out to Brief Essentials for stocking the most quality underwear & swimwear. Please check them out, you don’t have to order from “the abroad”, they always represent.
My Birthday Surprise
I am a naturally paranoid person so when my best friends & boyfriend got really quiet about my birthday, my mind went into overdrive. Obara knew I had never had a surprise party & I suspected she was up to something. Everyone was tired of me because I kept saying nobody should do a surprise party for me.
Just when I started feeling a surprise party would not be bad, I snooped and saw a chat. My boyfriend was telling a friend how he would have celebrated my birthday but did not get the money he was expecting. Then Obara ordered a wig for me & kept tweeting about how broke she was. I was so disappointed. I told him that it was okay & we could just have the intimate dinner he planned.
Despite being sick that weekend, I did not want the reservation to waste so I got dressed for the “intimate dinner”. On our way there, he snapped at me and I got in a terrible mood, I just wanted to go home and sleep. We got to Yellow Chili & went in to sit down. One of the attendants came & said that space had been reserved and there were free spaces upstairs. We went upstairs & I almost had a heart attack when I heard people shouting “Surprise!”
The year of Fearlessness
In the past few years, my birthdays used to come with depression. I used to feel under-achieved & like a fraud or an impostor. People online thought I had it good & I never felt the need to show that it wasn’t all that good. The pressure would get so much that I could feel the walls closing in around me. I talked about some of these in a reflection post for the New Year. My boyfriend knew this & this year made an extra effort with my best friends to make me feel loved. I cried. I’m a semi-hard babe normally so the tears were unexpected.
I made up my mind to do everything within and outside my power to achieve my dreams starting from this year. There is no more fear of the unknown. I’m doing it afraid. I know it’ll be a slow and steady journey but the most important thing is knowing that the only thing standing between me & my dreams, is fear. It’s gone now, I’m all in!
Thank you to everyone who wished me well. Thank you Obara & Cynthia for being a blessing & my babes for life. Jumoke, Frances & Yetunde for always showing up for me. Wendy & Ibidun (and husbands LOL) for being my family. Alex & Wura for being my sweet girls. Kardo & Uzor for coming through. Bukky, Cassie & Mabe, I know you guys were part of the plan. Seun, you are more awesome. Thank you Femi for being the most amazing man ever, I am legit the most blessed woman on earth. I love you guys for making it my birthday one to remember.
Cheers to a fearless life! Cheers to 25!